At age twenty-eight, Becky Miller was a businesswoman and pastor's wife, preparing to be a mother. Narcotics, feeding tubes, and transplant surgery were not on her radar. But when an undiagnosed illness changes the trajectory of her life, Becky becomes an expert in pain. After losing her job, her community, the children she had hoped to adopt, her pancreas, and her perceived control of life -- her teetering faith ultimately discovers new depth and strength. Hope and humor find surprising footing in this memoir, which chronicles her rise from despair to hope.