Fabian Hernandez: The man who stole my first kiss. My recently acquired brother in law. From the moment he came into my life, he turned everything upside down. There's a magnetism that keeps drawing us back together. But we can't. It isn't allowed. It would bring shame. It shouldn't have to be this hard, this complicated. Maybe if I were someone else. Someone without a controlling mother, a conservative culture. A family and culture that sees this man as immediate family. This is so difficult. My hijab is getting too tight, everything around me is becoming too constricting. Why must he drive me to the brink of madness with every touch, every kiss? When things start to unravel, will I be strong enough to make the hardest decision of my life?