This work shares a contemplative journey with an imagined spirit being. The author wrestles with issues in his spiritual life: how to love, how to integrate one's body, how to face failure, and how to finish his life's work. Often it is a crisis that brings answers to these questions and the motivation for doing what is necessary to fulfill them. While writing this, the author is informed of the impending death of his brother. This work, completed after the death, proves to the spiritual dynamic that releases his brother's and the author's creativity into the world.